Everything all at once

On day 2 of a 12 day run. I wish SOMETHING could be taken off my plate. My new CPAP machine makes me smell something smoky in the morning - which seems easy - just don't use it until I get a new one, right? Except I have to use it for 20/30 of the days in order for insurance to pay for it. Otherwise I have to start the whole process over again with a new test and more bills and more battling with insurance. And I am working 6am-6pm for the rest of the month. So I guess I just hope my house doesn't burn down. That said, my sleep has been more restful than I have had in like - 4 years. Now when I oversleep it's not because I am falling asleep every time I sit down... it's just depression!

In addition - my car's computer is messed up. I am not sure if it is a "reprogram" or "replace" issue....but golly jee willikers I hope it is just a reprogram, otherwise all of the money I have saved for London is gone. When can I get it in? - the same day I have to do everything else all at once. Because October 1st is my only day off.

I wish I could say I am not at my wit's end but I am definitely looking over the edge mmmmkay? I started color cube 75 today though. Still striving for 100 by Jan 1st. I have had to be a little less finicky with some things in order to get them all done, but it was never really a finished work type challenge.

I have so much I want to do but not enough of my own time to do it right now. I wish I had a private chef and a maid and perhaps some valium and a really good cheese.

I wish I had a lot of things. I wish I had help. But it's just me.

I got this. I do. But I am still going to eat the cheese.