17/19

Yes, I did it to myself. I am on day 17 of a 19 day work run, most of those being 12 hours per day. My house is a mess, I am behind on everything, and my patience is wearing thin. HOWEVER - My paycheck today was more than twice my normal and next check will be the same. A little sacrifice now to be able to get Mom to London. That is - if the country allows us to leave and come back at that point. Who knows whats going to happen. Maybe they will cut more jobs in Air Traffic Control and it won't be safe to fly. I had a dream my mom and I got stuck in London because the USA went to war. And mostly I was sad that I left my elderly dog behind and would probably not get to be with him when he died. Dreams are weird.

I actually don't know how Scribbles is going to be doing in a few years. I have felt bad leaving him at home all day for pretty much the last month. The age is hitting him, not too hard yet. Vet says she was surprised he was 14/15. She thought he was closer to 12. But - the inevitable will happen. I am just hoping it isn't while I am in another country.

And boy am I gonna be WRECKED. It's one of the reasons I wish there wasn't so much overtime - so I can spend more quality time with my dog .... and also my Mom of course. Now that she is retired I can bother her more if I just find the time! We are going on a day adventure at the end of the month so that should be fun.

The Cube project is going along but it's been too busy at work to get much done. One of my exes contacted me for a friend's project that I have to do as well, and also I want to do a pet portrait for a coworker by Christmas. I was hoping the pet portrait would be in pastel or acrylic but I haven't seen the inside of my actual studio in months. Every single doodle has been digital.

Besides America's seemingly inevitable dive into fascism, I have been ok. My empath heart hurts on the daily, and I am filled with rage. But I am also trying to find joy where I can. I found a group online that posts pictures of peeling paint. It's surprisingly glorious. It's full of nerds like me who go crazy for a little macro photography and think rust and decay can be gorgeous.

I found a halloween costume I want - It's a rat costume. I was trying to talk my best friend into being a plague doctor and we could walk about giving people the plague. Which might be....stickers? Glitter? Fake fleas? OMG. Shrinky dink fleas....

I love Halloween. Do I really want to spend that much for a joke? I donno. I have done worse. lol Honestly I have nowhere to wear a costume to, but I want to find something because I want to be a silly fat rat handing out the plague.

Alright. Back to work. Do it Lady.

All of it.