99

I finally did it - I found a short chonky nutcracker to turn into a dispatcher. We have a cop one and a firefighter one and for the longest time I said that dispatch needs representation.

I added a headset and some warrant folders and one of our newbies 3D printed a Stanley style cup to add to the realism.

I am working on Color Cube number 99. The goal was 100 by new year and I have got it on lock.

We are headed into another season of overtime at work. I did request my birthday off; as usual bestie and I are planning a trip - but this one is going to be about relaxing. We are going to book a Vrbo with a hot tub and a pool table and a home theatre and just spend 3 days decompressing. I will also probably bring a puzzle. We may take a trip out to one thing or so per day, but it's going to be a lazy time full of shutting off brains this year I think. Its in Cleveland, so I definitely want to go to the Cleveland Museum of Art to see my Redons. Early nights with a hot tub and a good book and a puzzle sounds amazing in this year of overstimulation.

I finally bought a pair of tabi shoes and I hope they fit and are comfortable. My mom, my best friend, and most of my coworkers think they are horrendous. I kind of agree, but that's why I love them. I want to try to dress myself with pride again and not just oversized hoodies. What I wear has always been an indication of my self esteem and energy level. I think dressing in clothes that feel like "me" will help me get back to feeling my self worth. I hope. Maybe.

My therapist thinks I might have ADD/ADHD. I always thought I just had artistic brain, but there is definitely something that works a little different up in there.

I have commited to helping a young lady at work with navigating dating apps. I am trying very hard not to be terribly discouraging, but everyone knows the pickings are slim out there. >.< I just want to make sure she is safe and having fun and doesn't get attached to people who will take advantage of her naivety and good heart, but I must temper my perimenopausal and repeatedly heartbroken views on men because maybe she will luck out.

Weather has been gross. I finally got a remote start. Already 100% WORTH IT. Sometimes it even starts my car from where I work in the basement all the way out to the lot 500 ft away.

Anyway, I am at work and I haven't had caffiene. So I am going to go remedy that.

Find something beautiful in the day.